The Bitter, The Better.

I so love my profile picture on Facebook. HAHAHA.

I run out of things to do last night, eh?

That's why I took pictures of myself and edited some of it.

I find this one cool so I made it my profile picture.

And yes, I need to replace my picture on FB 'coz I'm so over showing off the emo side of me, heehee. :)

So here's the bitter side of me, I guess.

HAHAHA. lame.

That's it for now, I'm so busy doing school stuffs, eh?

FYI: my grades are so low. yes, eff. HMP. HAHA.

kk, so long! bb.

This is the moment

An AWWW-slash-AW moment (based on a true story)

Girl feels like throwing up and the guy saw her...

Guy: Oh? Buntis ka?

Girl: (smiles.)

Guy: Three months?

Girl: HAHA.

Guy: Sino ama?

Girl: (smiles sheepishly.)

Behind the guy's back...

Girl: Kung alam mo lang kung sino sana...

HAHAHA. Mushy. :'>

So I cry and I pray and I beg, love me, love me, say that you love me

This post is not planned. GOSH. My friend, ugh.. and now I am doubting if I should recognize her as one. gaddemmit. She's really getting in to my nerves. Though I am not feeling bad trip or angry or what, I just don't get it why she acted that way. Is she in to drugs? I am busy Facebook-ing then I receive a text from her, and oh yes btw, the name is Ferry Lene T. Mendiola. Oh it is not a PM you know, it is a group message. AND yes, she's muddaeffin' out of her mind. Her message is full of shitness and more shitness. Okay, sorry for my words, I won't keep it uncensored because, really I am in rage now. I just want to feel the fire burning in.

So here is the fcuking first message:

"Palimos ng konting panahon mo"

-linya ng batang itago natin sa panggalang "Kathleen" sa kanyang "dream guy"

...peace katz... sweet dreams. i love you katz

...bsa/bsba secret lang to ha... baka madinig ni "dream guy" hahaha

..good night. :)

Since I am not unli tonight, I just miscalled her. Then she texted me again:

natouch ka ba sa gm ko? alam kong di ka unli kaya naintindihan ko na yung missed call mo. You're welcome my dearest friend, kahit di mo sabihin naiintindihan ko, para saan pa at naging magkaibigan tayo, diba? Ayos lang yan, wag ka nang umiyak jan. Pero okay lang kung tears of joy. hahaha

then I replied:

tae na yoo, i love you (pajoke na mura, baka mamisunderstoof mo, eh?) kagago mo tlaga, nakakahiya. Ginamit mo pa siya para lang masabi mong mahal mo ko, wag ganun. Okay na yung i love you na lang.

then she replied:

haha ala lang maghintay ka pa pag di pa ko inaantok maya-maya madadagdagan pa yan. haha sulitin ko yung unli ko hehe.

So I did not reply anymore, and for goodness sake, my phone rang again and another group message has been sent:

"bakit nga ba mahal kita kahit na may mahal ka ng iba"

-share ko lang guys yung song na dninededicate ni katz sa "the man of my dreams" nya... :)

And good as I am, I just ignore it and continue my life, then after a while, I received the third and shittest message:

hahaba ng bonggang bongga ang buhok ni Kathleen bukas... wag na kayong magtaka kung makakatapak kayo ng buhok pagtuntong nyo ng Cabanatuan sapagkat the man of her dreams ay kakanta ng bonggang bongga bukas. Nanamnamin nya na siya ang hinaharana ni "dream guy" at dahan-dahan siyang lilipad sa kalangitan sa sobrang hangin sa ulo ngunit puputukin ni "Reyes" ang lumolobo niyang ulo sa sobrang selos. Subaybayan natin ang susunod na kabanata.

Dito na nagtatapos ang chika update ko for today. This is your chika master Ferry, thank you! For more infor, check this website: www.chikamaster-katzlovelife.com.ph

good night... ILY, K.

SO NOW WHAT? WTF??? I don't know. I am not mad but I am thinking about my classmates and friends' reactions tomorrow. GAWD, this one's a big issue. CRAPPYBS.

*Oh yes, I even shot a photo of that muddaeffin' quote she group messaged. I even put my oinky boinky there, oh! And I showed off my skills in lettering. Sheeessh. Oh I thought, everything today is happy. But yes, this one is lame. Very lame. Gaah, I should be sleeping this time. eh? I need to wake up early tomorrow, 'coz I'll be applying for my driver's license naa! YAY! Oh sorry, 'yay' isn't good for this raging post. HAHA. So, now what? Adios, amigos! BB bitckes. LMAO. (kk, I'll edit this soon.)

FN: The title is not related to the post itself. I am just running out of titles, eh? It's the banner of my Multiply site. Come on, check it out: [LINK]

You make me happy whether you know it or not

August 18, 2009. Tuesday. Marked.

I have never been THIS HAPPY for a long time now. Thanks God for giving it to me today. I'm talking about the happiness, babe. Truly remarkable. :D I thought that this would be just an ordinary day for me, going to school then going home, you know. BUT, I'm wrong. I've got a lot of reasons to show off my pearly whites. And I'll tell it to you now, one by one.

First, it's him. MWAHAHA. (kinikilig ako, srsly.) Oh well, being the 'first' reason goes to show that this is the primary reason of my happiness. Yes, it is. His smile? Candid and captivating. His eyes? Sincere and penetrating. His voice? Oh boy, it's perfect. He has the rockstar-can-be-balladeer-voice. As time goes by, my admiration to this guy goes deeper and deeper. I heard him sing once and then I heard him again earlier today. And yes, he got me head over heels in like with him. Great voice, playing instruments and whatever music inclination is really my weakness. He's playing the guitar and he is singing on our room and all I know is... Bang! Bang! It's like I so love him to death. I just can't stop myself from smiling the whole time he sings. Too bad, I went out with my friends that's why I haven't finished his whole concert thing. But that's fine with me anyway, because I am afraid that one more song from him will make me fall on my knees. Get me? :) (oh, God! What am I just saying?) So yeah, I will just watch him tomorrow on our club day because he will be the one representing our club on a singing contest. YAY! Gosh, if he sings a Christian Bautista song tomorrow, damn! I don't know, he will definitely get me. I am so ready to swoon over him. And yes, I am smiling until now. YIKI! :'>

I just don't get it why he is always singing Hale songs. And he even sang Your Guardian Angel. Damn, mi favorito, btw.

Oh man, it makes my feeling more intense. Jeez, we have the same choice of music. Uuuy, soulmates. *lowlz. I wish, though!

Oh, reality check-slash-bad news: He's taken. BOOHOO. HAHAHAHA.

Second, I have bumped Mrs Mananquil, the adviser of our school paper, The Immaculate on the school corridor. And guess what? She told me that she had read my written article and she loves it. Jeez, I really did not expect it because I know that particular article is lacking of something I do not know. Okay I'll tell it to you straight, I know that I have not given my best in writing that article because I really am not feeling well that time. That is why it really shocked me when she told me she likes it. And she told me too to continue writing good works. Oh, man! Though I know I don't deserve that compliment, it made me happy in a way, of course. Like hello? HAHA. Yipee. And that makes me want to write more, HAHA. Inspired, eh? I am really inspired... read above paragraph. HAHA. :)

And lastly, my friends. OF COURSE. They are the reason that I breathe, they are the reason I still believe. JAI HO. HAHAHA. Nah. Kidding aside, they really made me happy, too. We bonded so much today. Specifically, it's Cathy and Ferry (yeah, make it KATY PERRY) we talked a lot, especially our rants about love, life and friendship. Yes, need I say more? We enjoyed reviewing for our quiz on Computer although we are so noisy. Luckily, we got 29 out of 30. The three of us. BOOHOO still. My wrong answer is mispelled, I made it 'stirring' instead of 'steering.' Ferry's wrong answer is also mispelled, she wrote 'inplementation' instead of 'implementation.' Cathy's wrong answer is, ugh, don't mind it, it is just because it is a wrong answer, heehee. And my two other friends, got 29 too and they got the same mistake with Cathy. Will this be a good proof that my friends and I are smart? HAHA. jk. And for the record, I am not that bad in spelling, it just so happen, you know. (Oh, too defensive, eh?) FYI: We reviewed just one our before the quiz. So, are we smart? Yes or yes? :D Aww, I so appreciate it, thank you. HAHA. So getting back to the story, we laugh a lot today. Super. We are all having a tight budget but still we went to the mall and decide to eat out. Yet, we're having a hard time choosing where to eat because of our budget. And after 30 minutes of discussion, we ended up eating at KFC. Yes, that was fun though. And let me share you our deal, that we are going to eat out one time and we will be ordering no drinks, just water and then we will just look for calamansi and putting it on the water, turning our water in to a calamansi juice. Yes, for real. Oh, that's exciting. HAHA.

Yes, I am so happy today. I hope I'll still be tomorrow and forever more. HAHAHA. Yiki, so that's it for now. I'll just update you soon, kk? bb everyone, take care! :x

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I know you hate it when I say these things right in your face but I can’t lie, you know me better it’s cause the words inside just speak the truth.

Will This Pen Ever Run Out of Ink? II

NINOY'S LETTER TO DAUGHTER BALLSY (1973)

August 18, 1973

FortBonifacio

Makati, Rizal



Ms. Maria Elena C. Aquino

25 Times St. Quezon City



My dearest Ballsy,

I write you this letter with tears in my eyes and as if steel fingers are crushing my heart because I wanted so much to be with you as you celebrate your legal emancipation. Now that you have come of age, my love, a voice tells me that I am no longer young and suddenly, I feel old.

An old poet gave this advice very long ago “when you are sad, remember the roses will bloom in December.” I want to send you bouquet of roses, big red roses from my dreamland garden. Unfortunately for the present, my roses are not in bloom, in fact they have dropped all their petals and only the thorns are left to keep me company. I do think it is fitting to send you a thicket of thorns on this memorable day!

I am very proud of you because you have inherited all the best traits of your mother. You are sensible, responsible, even-tempered and sincere with the least pretenses and affection which vehemently detest in a woman. I am sure like your mother, you will possess that rare brand of silent courage and that combination of fidelity and fortitude that will be the life vest of your man in the tragic moments of his life.

During my lonely hours of solitary confinement in FortMagsaysay, Laur, Nueva Ecija last March and April with nothing else to do but pray and daydream, with only my fond memories to keep me company, I planned a weekend barrio fiesta for you in Tarlac for your 18th birthday. I fooled myself into believing that my ordeal would end with the fiscal year. I planned to invite all your classmates and friends and their families for the weekends.

The schedule called for an early departure by bus from Manila and the first stop will be Concepcion , where lunch will be served by the pool. And after lunch, you were to visit the SantaRitaElementary School to distribute cookies and ice cream to the children of that public school where you were first enrolled.

I guess sheer nostalgia prompted me to include Santa Rita. We were only three then: Mommie, you and I. Those were the days of happy memories little responsibilities, tremendous freedom, a great future ahead and capped by a fulfillment of love.. You are the first fruit of our union, the first proof of our love and the first seal of our affections.

From Concepcion we were to proceed to Luisita for the barrio fiesta. I intended to invite a friend who could roast an entire cow succulently. Swimming, pelota, dancing and eating would have been the order of the day.

Sunday morning was reserved for a trip around the Hacienda and the mill and maybe golf for some of the parents and later a picnic-lunch on Uncle Tony’s Island . Return to Manila after lunch. I am afraid this will have to remain as one of the many dreams I had in Laur.

Our future has suddenly become uncertain and our fate unknown. I am even now beginning to doubt whether I’ll ever be able to return to you and the family. Hence, I would like to ask you these special favors.

Love your mother, whose love for you, you will never be able to match. She is not the greatest mother in the world, she is your sincerest friend.

Take care of your younger sisters and brother and lavish them with the love and care I would like to continue giving them but am unable to do so.

Help Noy-noy along and pray hard that he will grow to be a real, responsible man who in later years will protect you all.

You are the model for your three younger sisters. Your responsibility is therefore great. Please endeavor to live up to our highest expectations. Be more tolerant to Pinky, more accessible to Viel, our little genius-princess, and more charitable to Krissy, our baby doll, and make up for my neglect.

Finally, forgive me, my love, for not having been an ideal, good and thoughtful father to you all as I pursued public office. I had hopes and high resolve of making up, but I am afraid my destiny will not oblige.

I seal this letter with a drop of tear and a prayer in my heart, that somehow, somewhere we shall meet again and I will finally be able to make up for all my lapses, in the kingdom where justice reigns supreme and love is eternal.



I love you,

Dad

I'm looking for love this time, sounding hopeful but it's making me cry

Okay, for the records, my previous entry disturbs a lot of people. They are all like asking what's with my (L) life. And they all got one answer: NONE. Don't worry, I'm fine... way much better than fine. FINEST, eh? I just wrote that for the sake of writing and getting your attention. HAHA. But seriously, that was what I am feeling that day... only that day. :D But now, that feeling is all dead and gone. I'm super feeling light and ugh, whimsy? overjoyed? I don't know why but I am so damn happy. So why not at least be happy for me? :)
I know, the title is very catchy again. I don't know why but that song is my LSS these days. Yes, I know what you're thinking. It's the exact opposite of what I just wrote above. It's somehow bitter. Come on, go! Judge me or kill me if you'd love to. It's all free by the way. BUT, BUT, and BUT... I am not. I am not bitter. HAHAHA. I'm an anti-bitterness person now, eh? That's one of my advocacies in life, to make bitterness disappear on our world. On our should-be-filled-with-happiness-world. I just love to make that title to be my title, alright? DEAL WITH THAT. And really, check out that song... (though I know it's kind of an old song from Mr. A-Z, heehee.) it really makes me "aww..", seriously.
Okay, I will leave it just what it is. I should be doing something right this very moment, eh? I should be reviewing because I will be taking my Accounting exam later tonight. Oh yes, wish me luck. BUT instead of reviewing, I am Facebook-ing, playing poker and two other games, and yes, blogging. At least I know this ain't a sin. ME RIGHT? Yes I am. :P So yes, after posting this, I will go straight to bathe and yes, be ready for school. I'm going to school early, stay at the library and do my stuff: review. I hate to but I need it, eh? God, for goodness sake, I'll be reviewing. HAHA. Okay, so now what? Adios, got to go. :D

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Love is blinding when the timing's never right.

Right in the thick of love, at times we get sick of love

Holla people! It's been a while since my last post, ah? Oh, it has been a long while, mind you. And now, I'm trying to catch up again. Sorry for being absent the past weeks, I've been attacked by my sickness, eh? Laziness plus a blank-mind. There are a lot of things that keep me busy the moment I'm out of the blog scene. AND, yes... I'm too tired to share all of it here. :"| BUT, all of those experiences are written on my journal. I still have a back-up, though.

Okay, so I'll get back to work. YIHAA, I miss this, eh? :">

Have you ever been in a situation wherein you are getting close to someone and you set your mind that he is just a friend but then, there are times that you feel like backing out? If yes, then you'll get me. I really had no feelings with this guy, but there are a few times that I find him very gentleman and it really moved me. BUT, as I have told you, I have set my mind that he will be nothing to me but a friend. That's what I want, really, and I don't want to cross that limit for in the end I know I will be the one losing, AGAIN. Oh well, this is not about me being afraid to risk and lose, you know... It's just that I don't want to be there yet. Period.

So yes, I lose my appetite to continue what I am writing now. I'll be back maybe later, maybe soon but definitely not maybe not. :) I swear. bb. :3

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"Take it slow maybe we'll live and learn, maybe we'll crash and burn, maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave, maybe you'll return. Maybe another fight, maybe we won't survive but maybe we'll grow we never know baby you and I."

CREDITS: Image from jane-addiction